19, Perth, Australia ( WAussie ) This is me.
Only just finding out now that my kitten Crystal whom I had about 10 years ago. Didn’t actually die the way I thought she did, instead I find out she was still alive and taken out to the bush in a shoe box to die in the cold all by herself. She was only a baby. How could someone do that. No one deserves to die alone or to die alone and feel like they weren’t loved. Cats have feelings and people don’t realise that.
That moment it takes a movie to open your eyes and realise you need to stop focusing on all your flaws and yourself.
- Haruki Murakami (via hqlines)
Anonymous asked: Why are you so miserable ?
Because every slice of happiness is constantly stripped from me. and i’m blind to any signals of it leaving every time.
I have three weeks worth here…brace yourself.
Day 163: where is one place you would love to visit.
I would love to visit Red Deer in Alberta Canada, I would love to see where my family is from and visit some long lost relatives.
Day 164: one thing many people don’t know about you.
I’m afraid to stay close to people..because everyone I’ve ever known has left.
Day 165: favorite type of music.
I don’t have a favourite music type, I like whatever sounds good to me.
Day 166: have you ever had a teacher that changed your life.
Indeed I have, My year 6 and 7 teacher (whom I have on facebook too haha) She was there for me and stood by me when I needed someone, She saw something in me that I didn’t know existed.
Day 167: funniest movie you have ever seen.
I don’t know about funniest I’ve ever seen but I love ‘Just friends’. Such a great comedy never fails to make me laugh.
Day 168: how do you feel about cyber bullying.
I despise it, I was getting cyber bullied at one stage and decided it wasn’t worth the pain and deleted my account. Best decision I had made. Home and the internet was my escape, the one place I could/can go to escape the pain and torment there was no way I was letting it have that too.
Day 169: what is your life motto.
I don’t have one…maybe I do but I’m yet to discover it.
Day 170: what is something you notice throughout high school.
That people are all talk, they’ll talk themselves up to be intimating but they’re just as afraid as you are. That and friends never stay.
Day 171: one famous guy you would marry in an instant.
Oh god one? hmm… Alexander Skarsgård, now he’s a babe (he’s Eric Northman from True Blood).
Day 172: what kind of person attracts you.
The nice at first but later snobby twats who only care about themselves.
Day 173: is there something you laugh at every time it happens.
i’m sure there’s something but right now I can’t remember.
Day 174: how do you think you’re going to act like in 10 years.
Hopefully the same way I do now.
Day 175: songs you listen to when you’re happy.
I generally listen to any song, when I am happy even the most depressing songs are seen in the brightest of ways.
Day 176: do you enjoy cooking.
Oh god no, I either burn my hand or the food haha.
Day 177: something you’re proud of in the past few days.
My sister published her third book and I am just so proud of her and what she’s accomplished.
Day 178: a goal you have this weekend.
To get all my work sorted.
Day 179: how did you spend your last birthday?
In my bedroom alone full of balloons, it was an epic party…so hardcore ;)
Day 180: what is the most inspiring book you have read?
'Control The Crazy’ by Vinny Guadagnino. The few tips he has given me has helped so much.
Day 181: A picture of your favorite memory.
I don’t think I have a picture of my favourite memory.
Day 182: A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 183: you are told you have one week left to live, how do you spend it?
This is a tough question, I’ve pondered about this for a while..I guess I’d like to think I would go to the place I’ve always wanted to go to, and see a very amazing person and ask them to just go to that place I’ve always wanted to go to so they can tell people about an amazing week they once shared with a girl who was lost and searching for her but didn’t have enough time. …yeah I think to much.
There’s nothing quite like being abandoned by your friends in your most fragile state and scared for your life.
I find it harder to let go of material objects then people. How messed up is that?
The scariest thing is not knowing how you’re feeling and not knowing exactly why you’re feeling like that.
I wish there was something about me that was addictive. Something that made me hard to forget or hard to move on from. I hate it when people find it easy to dismiss me for someone else in days. It really takes no effort at all to push me out of the picture when I’m just a side factor.
This is how it feels anyway